Tag: grief
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Mother’s Day 2021- Bittersweet & Beautiful
This year on Mother’s Day, I was able to spend time with all of my kids. We went down to visit our first baby girl, Phoebe at the infant cemetery in Holy Sepulcher cemetery. When we drove into It was a very full, more than I’ve ever seen. Many many people were visiting their moms…
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To Phoebe, today you would have been 3
Three years. Three years since you were here oh so briefly and gone even quicker. Three years when the stars fell from the sky and nothing made sense anymore. I hated myself, my body for failing at doing what it was built for. I had survivors guilt, trauma and so much emotional pain I had…
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But it’s not fair! Dealing with disappointment
How many times have you heard a 5 year old yell this at the top of their lungs stamp a foot and become angry that things are not going the way they demanded? I mean… not my kids because they don’t talk but believe me I get the non verbal version of this argument a…
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To the mom who miscarried and has kids
Dear Mama, Firstly, I want to say I’m so sorry for your loss. I understand your pain, confusion and hurt. You had already been made a mama by your little one(s) and the day came when you found out you were pregnant again! Joy, nervousness and elation may have started to course through your veins…
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Happy 1st Birthday Phoebe
Today is the day she were born, lived and then went to Heaven. Today is a day for redemption and joy. We still miss her and look forward to the day we meet again. One year ago it would have felt impossible to think that we would have another little girl. In God’s great narrative…
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Holding on to Hope
Confession- I cried when I wrote this. 6 weeks have elapsed since the loss of our daughter. She would have been 26 weeks now and just beginning the last trimester of pregnancy. I’ve been doing well, body healing and mentally doing ok. Until I got an email. ‘WELCOME TO YOUR THIRD TRIMESTER!’ I’m not sure…
Babies and Gentleman 